Defiance.
I’m not sorry at all.
Freeze me out with your coldness.
You’re a big fat brick wall.
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The impact has faded
of being treated with silence.
Sulk all you want,
I’m drunk with defiance.
Emotional bully…
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Enough…
An alien environment
is where I now belong.
A nose cut off to spite a face,
too proud to right the wrong.
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1 word…
You give me 1 loving word,
and I’m under your thumb.
I’ll bend over backwards,
for 1 loving crumb.
Our routine’s well practiced.
We both know our role.
You can treat me so coldly,
then 1 word warms my soul.
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Intermission…
I’m not your girlfriend.
I don’t even rank.
You’re sick of my shit.
Your sex drive is blank.
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I’ve lost my backbone.
Just roll over and cry.
I want you to love me.
I want you to try…
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Provoked response.
Anger.
Red hot.
Shaking hands.
Burning thoughts.
Bitter words.
Queen Janine…
Mean Janine.
The hypocrisy queen.
She uses their son
as her weapon.
A gangsters has-been,
is Queen Janine.
A DNA test,
quick to threaten.
Riding a Bye-cycle…
Once again his mood changes,
right out of the blue.
His contempt for me settles,
He’s the him I first knew.
It’s an emotional cycle.
It’s taking a toll.
It hardens my heart.
It darkens my soul.
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Insecure seeds…
I’m feeling insignificant,
a loving word is all I need.
He’s far to hard to give me that,
And my insecurities breed…
Over-thinking holds me hostage,
there’s no mercy on myself.
A loving word from him is all I need,
To soothe my mental health.
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Goodbye God…
I just used him for his six pack,
his perfect male bod.
Gave him years of love and tears…
He only saw himself as God.
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Enough…
You used to be my rock,
you were my anchor to the ground.
These days you’re still my rock,
you are a weight that holds me down.
You used to be my comfort,
you held me tight when Bryer died.
These days I beg your comfort,
to soothe my battered, broken pride.
You used to give me strength,
during my darkest, weakest time.
These days I waste my strength,
on all the eggshells I must climb.
Enough is enough.
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Confusion…
Running hot, running cold
keeping me in line.
Ignore me when I speak against,
how dare I undermine…
Days go by with nights alone,
my heart begins to pine…
But I know that underneath it all,
you’ve never thought you’re mine.
I face the facts and let you go,
you see that as the sign,
to turn up full of charm and love,
as though everything is fine.
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