Stubborn and proud
is how he looks, lying cold.
A child of 16,
who will never grow old.
A decision was made
in a moment, so brief..
He told his mum that he loved her,
then drowned her in grief…
.
Stubborn and proud
is how he looks, lying cold.
A child of 16,
who will never grow old.
A decision was made
in a moment, so brief..
He told his mum that he loved her,
then drowned her in grief…
.
Almost 7 years without you.
It’s normal now.
Sometimes I wonder
if you were even really real.
My broken heart tells me you were.
I love you so much Bryer.
I miss you constantly.
Love from Mom. Xx
Each morning brings the same heartbreak.
A nightmare that is lived awake.
Split second choice I once did make.
My daughter died from that mistake.
Three years of tears could fill a lake.
The strength you see is all a fake.
If it was them, their “life they’d take”.
But I’ll grow old… For Bryers sake.
.
Do you see the sadness in my eyes,
or would it come as a surprise
to find out that my heart is hollow,
or how much of my hurt I swallow..?
Do you notice my unhappy soul?
Each tear I cry taking it’s toll..
My endless pain is worse each day,
my rock developed feet of clay…
The grief I carry haunts my mind
the child’s face, time left behind.
I struggle through another week
with sorrow rolling down my cheek.
.
Her lock of hair sits in a box.
My broken heart continues beating.
Life carry’s on, she’s left back in time.
Minutes with her were too fleeting.
Her soul stands beside me
unseen are her tears.
She wishes I’d live without pain.
But my arms want my girl,
my eyes ache for her face.
Every morning the hurt starts again.
I only have four sleeps to go.
My anklet comes off in 96 hours.
What a year it’s been!!
The judge gave me a sentence of time.
Time to reflect.
Time to grieve.
Time to accept.
I haven’t gone crazy being stuck at home.
My mind is in a better place than this time last year.
I still cry everyday.
But I’ve begun to live everyday again too.
It’s always there.
Even when I’m preoccupied with the task at hand,
I’ve become used to the weight of it now.
I’ve learnt how to distract myself from it.
I’ve learnt how to live with the agony.
Most of the time…
It’s always there though.
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